Im beginning to wonder if I will ever be a complete person. Its very frusterating having 2 different worlds. Lately ive been lazy with these worlds and a few people could find me out if they really wanted. Why am I even typing this here? 1 b/c no one reads it. and 2. Maybe b/c I want to be found out. I want to be in the open and be able to write about why im happy with myself today. I hide b/c it hurts others, not b/c it hurts me. I just want to be whole. I want one journal where I can vent and talk about everything. Not 2 seperate ones where I have to be careful of what info I reveal. Only one person in my life is in both worlds. Will I ever allow anyone else to make the cross over?